Fifty Percent...

...of the worlds problems are my fault.

There has been a lot going on in my life lately. Things are getting to be pretty emotional. Not that it would show...

Lemme see if I can even remember all the things that are going on right now...

My grandfather has cancer of the prostate. I really hope he doesn't die, he is such a good man. I really don't know what would happen to my grandmother if he died. I suspect she would end up living with us, which would be good, but still sad.

My brother lost his job recently with which he was supporting his two kids and wife. He has been really depressed, worrying my parents immensely. They are totally at a loss for what to do, as this job had been a real life saver for him to have. I hope things start looking up for him soon.

I broke up with my girlfriend not so long ago. I'm not going post the nitty gritty of why here, as she has very much so expressed her desire for me to not talk about it with people. She says its our own personal business, with which I can agree. Needless to say though, it makes me very sad and hurt. But, that seems to be the way of things these days. Several of my friends appear to be breaking up this week, or at least on the rocks. :-(

Also, one of my material possesions has been greatly wounded. Poor old Kalvin. The kid never had a chance! He was too young to die! ;-D My car took a grievous hit today, his right eye taking the brunt of the hit. Bot his front legs are in dire need of new shoes too. At this time, I am going to decline to say who was at the wheel, however, I will say that I was in the back seat eating waffles...

Well. I guess thats what I have. Much sadness. Well, kinda.

With my grandfather, I know that whatever happens to him will be for the best, and that God will either take him home, or let him stay to continue his life long work.

With my brother, I know that things will be ok, already he is showing signs of vast improvement. Hopefully he will get a new job, one capable of supporting his family. I have faith that God will resolve all of whats going on with him right now.

With whats going on between Bobbie and I, I know that I did the right thing. Breaking up with her was hard, and probably the most emotionally painful thing I have ever had happen in my life, but I know that God will be working in both of us in the next year, and sending us where he wants to go. However, at this time, I hold doubts that where he sends us will be back towards each other.

With Kalvin... Kalvin is just a car, and nothing more. He will survive, he will go on. I will probably be fixing him on tuesday or wednesday. He will never be as handsome as he once was... These scars will probably stay with him the rest of his life. But with any luck, his life will hopefully still be long and fruitful, and not in any way dehabilitated by this accident.

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Of course, this is not all that is going on in my life. There are other more trivial annoyances, but those things are just that, trivial. I'm working about 20 hours a week, plus college 5 days a week and youth leading on wednesday and the occasional event.

Speaking of events, I just got back not so long ago from the years second best event, MYC. Minnesota Youth Convention is usually pretty rocking, and this year was no exception. Since I was a Youth Leader (or Youth Sponsor, if you wanna get technical) it was free for me. I had 2 rooms, one with half senior highers, and half junior high, and the other with all junior high kids. Boy, junior high kids can be real rascles, but they are also very fun. As far as the rascality of it all, nobody used their bodily functions in unapropriate ways, which was a big plus. The speaker at convention was pretty uplifting, although he made almost no mention of the infilling of the holy ghost. That was kinda disapointing, because convention tends to be one of the foremost places that kids learn about it. Oh well, that wasn't meant to be his message. His main theme seemed to be on forgivness, to which only a handful of our students seemed to move to. I got to pray with a ton of our students, which was cool. One of the kids, for who I was their leader, was really happy when I prayed with him. I can still picture his large over joyed smile when I asked him if he would like prayer.

Mmmm... Good times!

Ahhh... *sigh*

Well I guess I better go, I have a paper do for the morning, but I haven't even read the research end of things yet. :-D Thats college for ya. And to think, I have a's or b's in all my classes.

Yup yup... Lifes good but sad. Guess maybe I will chatter into the wind some other day...

Chau

Not a star after all...

That is it...

hi...

I know I haven't blogged much, and truthfully its unlikely that I will be doing much in the future. Right now I don't really feeling like putting an open forum on my emotions and experiences. I am kind of going through a lot of things, and I really just don't feel comfortable talking about things here. I will probably post little things now and again. About MYC or some anecdote from a teacher or how I really get confused by Mr Dallos. But, again, I would say that my desire to share things has reached an all time low, and things will probably be quiet the homefront.

Chau

So aggravating...

...To be mucking a round with the school databases. It seems like they are purposely designed to be inaccessible. The program constantly doesn't bring up what you request, and when it does, it usually crashes. I wish I could use it from home, but you can't, because the remote access doesn't actually work like it should.

:-( School, you make me sad.


On a lighter note, I worked last sunday. It was real slow. And even slower because I worked with Kathan. We talked a little bit to much. My supervisor didn't seem happy.

Oh well. It was really slow, and we got everything done alright.

*sigh*


Chau

Pretty Tired...

Well, today was my third day working at bridgemans, I went in early and left late. 7 and a half hours, isn't bad. I worked Friday, which is supposed to be the busiest day of the week, but it didn't seem nearly as busy as Thursday. Haha, this might sound silly but working a job seems like a fantastic diet plan.

I am very tired... But someone very special asked me to post, so I will continue on. I work 3 times in the coming week, once in the morning and twice in the evening. I work Friday again, which is fish day, and normally the busiest day of the week. I spent all morning slogging through English grammar work, which isn't very fun. I plan on spending a good portion of tomorrow doing history homework, which will be equally unfun. I aced a history quiz, which was super easy.

Oh, I guess I should let you all know, I have my drivers license, on the first try too! :-D But then again, I am sure that none of you had any doubts. Unfortunately, my moms car has been having some troubles, so we haven't really been given free reign over our car. Between my moms car problem and the gas prices, its a wonder we use the car at all.

Well... I think that I am going to call it quits!

I have sticky syrup on my arm. Its probably fudge or caramel. Ick. You have no idea how much food people waste everyday. Its disgusting. Whole entrees, salads and especially ice creams!

well... I am sure some of you are wondering about my hygiene, don't worry I'll keep brushing my teeth.

Chau

College, my first week.

I started college this week. It wasn't really hard. It was very interesting, but not very informative. In fact I would say that I have learned far less this week than I would have expected. Oh well.

I have English Comp 1, Intro to Sociology, Interpersonal communication and Minnesota History. I am going for my A.A. degree and hope to complete it in the next 2 years.

Oh well... This doesn't interest me much. For whatever reason I no longer desire to write about my life. I guess the phase has passed, it usually does.

Test post

I am doing 43 things.

The Spoken Word

Have you ever wondered what it would be like if you couldn't speak? Not if everyone couldn't speak, no, just you. I ask this because my voice totally hurts today. What would happen if I couldn't speak?

I would probably have to learn sign language, although I would much rather just carry a pad and pen around with me. I would have to give up a lot of things, really... Like singing, talking, laughing (maybe). I would have to stop talking to my girlfriend on the phone, or any of my friends for that matter. Hehe, it would a ton easier to hold my tongue now wouldn't it?

I have also been thinking a lot lately about goals. I have a lot of goals in my life. Some of them may be very well unreachable, but they are still goals. haha, check out some of them here...

Chau

Fight well my brethren!

So... Long time no post!

I think about my goals now and again. I guess I mostly keep them to myself, as they are very precious to me and hard fought to obtain.

Well...

Things have been pretty hectic lately, what with my grandfather having heart surgery, my brother recovering from cancer and every other small flurry of activity happening. I know I haven't been keeping up with my blog very well and that its been disappointing for some of my "Loyal Fans" but I guess that I needed a break from it for a while, which is ok.

I start college soon! Very soon indeed! The fifth of September if I remember right, although it is more than likely that I did not... I do very poorly with details which has never helped me one bit. I make do with what I have though, and I certainly have been given more than I need. Yes, I am a blessed man.

For a few moments I will let my foolishness cease.

Chau

Post lost in space...

I totally lost a post... It was a great one too...

But let me tell you about today. Click to read on...


I went to see my girl tonight! She was babysitting for a co-worker. The kid was named Reagan, she was four. It was a blast hanging out with my girl and watching this kid. We played at the playground for what seemed like forever. Wowza do kids have energy, they just seem to go forever. Bobbie would make a great mother.

Then at 8:30 we dropped Reagan back off at her house, and went home. We just lied around for half an hour until Deanne came and picked us up. We went out and about for awhile trying to think of something to do. We tried to go to "The top of the world" but it was closed. After that we went to a graveyard and just basically drove through it. Bobbies Grandpa was buried there. We continued our aimless pursuit of fun until we arrived at the race track. We got there after the race ended, and the track wasn't closed up at all... That's right you guessed it, we took a couple laps. But fear from the cops drove us off. Its not that they arrived or anything, we just got nervous and left. There were other cars on the track too, but we still felt scared.

sometime later, we proceeded to roll down a hill. Rolling down the hill was the best out of all I did today. We rolled 10+ times. We rolled in ones, twos and even all four of us at once. All four of us being Bobbie, Deanne, Thomas and myself. It was a blast. I am going to be sore in the morning though...

Chau!

OH... Ps... The other post was about the land my father is looking at, and how I drove about 70 miles... Blah Blah Blah... It really was a good one though...

Say... You don't think that Google got rid of it because I was dissing them, do you?

Tired

Ughh...

I had a tiring weekend. I spent all of it with BigZ, and needless to say we didn't get enough sleep.

Life seems boring right now, even though I had a slightly exciting day. I went to see the land that my father hopes to buy. It is 120 acres, lots of marsh but good deer country. Public land right across the road, so that's a added benefit. Haha... So we just walked around the land checking it out... And I brought this machete from home and used it to hack a path through the brush... Kinda... It was fun!

I am so tempted to be a "drok" (that's right, drok) dork that is... By using dorky little smilies...

I did a lot of driving today, its seventy miles to the land, each way. Plus I was driving in lakeside, there are some step hills there, and lots of traffic. Surprisingly, the most frustrating part of the drive was the parking at home.
Oh, did I mention that I got a 1988 Plymouth Relient K? Check that link to see its worth via the N.A.D.A. standard. I was pretty amazed! Its in average-high retail condition, which is pretty cool. Everything works great! Haha, I should take a picture of my trunk to show the pristine carpet condition. The doors and windows all work like brandnew, surprisingly. Beautiful Car!

I ate at subway today... They really aren't very good next to Quiznos... It was freezing in the place! And no tray or napkins, and the service was terrible. Not to mention that it takes forever to "toast" your sub. I don't like their subs toasted. 'cause they are pathetic. I had a Chipolte Cheese Steak, but their wasn't any sauce on it. My sister had a normal Cheese Steak with sauce on it, which she didn't like. So I got hers and she got mine... And no, we weren't confused, because mine was a foot long and hers was a 6 inch. So really only half of mine was sauced.

Mmmm... Sauce...

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A picture of my house from a Google satellite. They're watching ya know!

I both love and hate google. All their products are good... Yet they remain suspicious because of all the beta projects... And because all their products are to good to be true. But I will remain loyal until someone proves I shouldn't be. And I mean proves. Like really proves! Not just speculation, but a REAL smoking gun!

Haha... I love you google... For now... And remember kids, "Don't Be Evil!"

Who is Marissa Mayer anyways?

Chau

Tired

Ughh...

I had a tiring weekend. I spent all of it with BigZ, and needless to say we didn't get enough sleep.

Life seems boring right now, even though I had a slightly exciting day. I went to see the land that my father hopes to buy. It is 120 acres, lots of marsh but good deer country. Public land right across the road, so that's a added benefit. Haha... So we just walked around the land checking it out... And I brought this machete from home and used it to hack a path through the brush... Kinda... It was fun!

I am so tempted to be a "drok" (that's right, drok) dork that is... By using dorky little smilies...

I did a lot of driving today, its seventy miles to the land, each way. Plus I was driving in lakeside, there are some step hills there, and lots of traffic. Surprisingly, the most frustrating part of the drive was the parking at home.
Oh, did I mention that I got a 1988 Plymouth Relient K? Check that link to see its worth via the N.A.D.A. standard. I was pretty amazed! Its in average-high retail condition, which is pretty cool. Everything works great! Haha, I should take a picture of my trunk to show the pristine carpet condition. The doors and windows all work like brandnew, surprisingly. Beautiful Car!

I ate at subway today... They really aren't very good next to Quiznos... It was freezing in the place! And no tray or napkins, and the service was terrible. Not to mention that it takes forever to "toast" your sub. I don't like their subs toasted. 'cause they are pathetic. I had a Chipolte Cheese Steak, but their wasn't any sauce on it. My sister had a normal Cheese Steak with sauce on it, which she didn't like. So I got hers and she got mine... And no, we weren't confused, because mine was a foot long and hers was a 6 inch. So really only half of mine was sauced.

Mmmm... Sauce...

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A picture of my house from a Google satellite. They're watching ya know!

I both love and hate google. All their products are good... Yet they remain suspicious because of all the beta projects... And because all their products are to good to be true. But I will remain loyal until someone proves I shouldn't be. And I mean proves. Like really proves! Not just speculation, but a REAL smoking gun!

Haha... I love you google... For now... And remember kids, "Don't Be Evil!"

Who is Marissa Mayer anyways?

Chau

Cheat Sheet

So I am planning some revamping.

Check it!

Teh end

Trash from Yahoo

So I checked out Grokker today. It is junk. I felt that it made searching a lot longer and harder process. And after only 3 searches it crashed my browser. I have never had FireFox Crash on me before.

So disappointing. It really looked like it could have been fun. But it was slow and frankly useless. Of course it is still beta. So I shouldn't be to harsh. I guess it will probably improve. Hopefully to something that doesn't crash your browser.

Oh well..





So some sicko came and commented on my last post. I was really disturbed. I sent a letter to Blogger Support asking what can be done. They replied with a form letter... Hopefully they will take what I have said into consideration. There must be something they can do.

I need to go do homework. It seems like a long time since I have done some, even though its only been the weekend.

Gotta scoot

Chau

I no be done!

Because my tray table up and my seat is in the full up right position.

I blogged a post over here!

Thats Brookes blog!

I hope she is not mad!

That blogger mobile thing looks really interesting. I wish that I could actually use it... Oh Well!

Chau

Elitist?

I would not say that I have an elitist view of technology, as much as I would say that I wish to see people apply themselves to the technology they have. Often enough I have to help someone do something with technology. That doesn't bother me, what does bother me is when that same person repeatedly asks me to do the same thing, taking no note of how its done. For me technology is generally simple, for others it can be hard. I respect that. I just wish they would make some effort.


Can everyone make an effort? Yes! Everyone can. Can everyone learn? No, it would seem that not everyone can. For some it is to much. My grandfather, a very intelligent man would much rather write a letter than an email. I can understand. Getting used to something so new and hassle ridden, you might as well stick with what you know.


I was very impressed with my father the other day because he took note of how to turn on closed captioning. He made some effort, and it pleased me. Will he continue to ask me to do it? Oh yes, no doubt about it!

Its not that I don't like people who don't make the effort, its just that they are disapointing. They could learn, all they have to do is try. I guess they must be to busy or something...

Chau

For Good, Or For Awesome?

"For those about to Rock" I salute you.


That was an awesome concert! It had Pillar,TFK,John Reuben and Dizmas. John Reuben stole the show though! I don't even like rap, but his music kicked! He was on the mark, and his jokes were hilarious. He was manipulating the crowd like a master puppeteer. The most crowd participation gotten out of one T-shirt I have ever seen! It was so much fun.

Check it! My ticket in still perfect condition. It never got checked. I don't know why, but it didn't.

that's right! So next time you really should go! Because it was such a good concert. Besides, what are we going to tell John Reuben? We can't just tell him you didn't want to go! I mean, he deserves so much more than that! You can't just let him down! You wouldn't want him to let you down...

Well... Next time you'd better show up... So you can throw up your rawkfist with us!

Chau

Google.org

Google.org

Check it!

Google and its philanthropic dreams

We Love You Google!

Melancholy

Somedays thats just what I am.

Check out PostSecret. Yes its sad, but its the world in which we live. Those are the people you talk to everyday. The men and women who form your community. A lot of those people aren't anysort of special case.



Brr... My house feels cold and drafty today. I don't know why. I think that I will go put on a pair of socks. There now my feet aren't as cold. But it is still pretty chilly in here. I put on a jacket. It makes things a little better...

So I just got duped into taking a survey over at Gamespy, I totally thought it was for gamespy when I began, but the further in I got the more doubts I had about the survey. So I just held back a lot of information. Oh Well, as long as they don't send me junk.

I am almost ready to start using my template I made from scratch. We will see I guess. I really should start using it now so that I will get sick of it sooner and make myself a new one sooner.

Chau

Listen to my soothing voice...

Haha... Some how this makes me think of Kip from Napoleon Dynamite

Chau