11.2.08

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Hey!

A lot has changed in my life since I last wrote in storybook. Or even here!

Well, for starters I am a first year at Sin City Master's Commission. Which is pretty crazy. Sometimes it seems like too crazy a thing to me. But so far it has been really good, and I am happy with it.

First off. Its tough. So tough. Too tough.

This way of living can drive you crazy sometimes. You aren't really meant to survive it on your own. Living like this, at this standard, you must have God. You can only fake it so long. Fake it 'till you make it.

This year I am crafting a legacy, setting down the foundation for every year to come. I am setting the pace for every kid who rolls in here. Am I running fast enough? Am I setting the bar high enough? Probably not. No, I am not. Definitely not. I need to push further. I need to wear myself out in pursuit of Christ, so that when I pass the baton, I'm not ashamed of how far I've run.

I need to push deeper with Christ. I need to bust past all my inhibitions, I need to let go. I continually come back to Tim, when really I want to give him away and surrender that "self" to Him. But I seem to continually give up on myself, I seem to find the easy way out. I need to push for strength. I need to push for endurance. I need to push for God.

What is MCDQ?

Master's Commission doesn't quit....

I won't ring that bell...

I wonder if these are one in the same? Handles that directors hand you to help you up the ladder.

I think I know what MCDQ is/was. But in keeping with that spirit, I can't talk about it.

Well...


I could basically vent forever on here. But I actually have to make a scripture study happen. I don't really feel tired at all, but thats ok, I should still start on it.

(Let It Be)