Fifty Percent...

...of the worlds problems are my fault.

There has been a lot going on in my life lately. Things are getting to be pretty emotional. Not that it would show...

Lemme see if I can even remember all the things that are going on right now...

My grandfather has cancer of the prostate. I really hope he doesn't die, he is such a good man. I really don't know what would happen to my grandmother if he died. I suspect she would end up living with us, which would be good, but still sad.

My brother lost his job recently with which he was supporting his two kids and wife. He has been really depressed, worrying my parents immensely. They are totally at a loss for what to do, as this job had been a real life saver for him to have. I hope things start looking up for him soon.

I broke up with my girlfriend not so long ago. I'm not going post the nitty gritty of why here, as she has very much so expressed her desire for me to not talk about it with people. She says its our own personal business, with which I can agree. Needless to say though, it makes me very sad and hurt. But, that seems to be the way of things these days. Several of my friends appear to be breaking up this week, or at least on the rocks. :-(

Also, one of my material possesions has been greatly wounded. Poor old Kalvin. The kid never had a chance! He was too young to die! ;-D My car took a grievous hit today, his right eye taking the brunt of the hit. Bot his front legs are in dire need of new shoes too. At this time, I am going to decline to say who was at the wheel, however, I will say that I was in the back seat eating waffles...

Well. I guess thats what I have. Much sadness. Well, kinda.

With my grandfather, I know that whatever happens to him will be for the best, and that God will either take him home, or let him stay to continue his life long work.

With my brother, I know that things will be ok, already he is showing signs of vast improvement. Hopefully he will get a new job, one capable of supporting his family. I have faith that God will resolve all of whats going on with him right now.

With whats going on between Bobbie and I, I know that I did the right thing. Breaking up with her was hard, and probably the most emotionally painful thing I have ever had happen in my life, but I know that God will be working in both of us in the next year, and sending us where he wants to go. However, at this time, I hold doubts that where he sends us will be back towards each other.

With Kalvin... Kalvin is just a car, and nothing more. He will survive, he will go on. I will probably be fixing him on tuesday or wednesday. He will never be as handsome as he once was... These scars will probably stay with him the rest of his life. But with any luck, his life will hopefully still be long and fruitful, and not in any way dehabilitated by this accident.

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Of course, this is not all that is going on in my life. There are other more trivial annoyances, but those things are just that, trivial. I'm working about 20 hours a week, plus college 5 days a week and youth leading on wednesday and the occasional event.

Speaking of events, I just got back not so long ago from the years second best event, MYC. Minnesota Youth Convention is usually pretty rocking, and this year was no exception. Since I was a Youth Leader (or Youth Sponsor, if you wanna get technical) it was free for me. I had 2 rooms, one with half senior highers, and half junior high, and the other with all junior high kids. Boy, junior high kids can be real rascles, but they are also very fun. As far as the rascality of it all, nobody used their bodily functions in unapropriate ways, which was a big plus. The speaker at convention was pretty uplifting, although he made almost no mention of the infilling of the holy ghost. That was kinda disapointing, because convention tends to be one of the foremost places that kids learn about it. Oh well, that wasn't meant to be his message. His main theme seemed to be on forgivness, to which only a handful of our students seemed to move to. I got to pray with a ton of our students, which was cool. One of the kids, for who I was their leader, was really happy when I prayed with him. I can still picture his large over joyed smile when I asked him if he would like prayer.

Mmmm... Good times!

Ahhh... *sigh*

Well I guess I better go, I have a paper do for the morning, but I haven't even read the research end of things yet. :-D Thats college for ya. And to think, I have a's or b's in all my classes.

Yup yup... Lifes good but sad. Guess maybe I will chatter into the wind some other day...

Chau